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Link to this year's blog here (complete with shitty comics):

2025

Important Notes

Saving for list

BRING ME TO LIFE! unfunny 2010s emo reference

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ADHD-Friendly Pro Tips:

More of a reminder to myself, than anything.
I have ADHD, and these tips help immensely, when I remember them. Copy/paste them anywhere you need, spread them around, try them out, keep what works and discard the rest.

1: Write the ideal outcome to your task next to the task.
// outcome: you become a lot more motivated and can visualise your goals better.

2: Just get the draft down. Much easier to fix something that exists than to come up with something perfect that doesn’t exist yet.
// outcome: much easier to complete tasks

3: When possible, go over things multiple times until you thoroughly understand them. You'll know you do when you can do the task effortlessly and with little thought. E.g. when learning Blender, practice with say, the Knife tool until you thoroughly understand how to use it and efforlessly remember the hotkey when prompted. Pretend you're showing a friend how to use it. Can you explain it a way a non-blender nerd will understand? Do this IRL if you have the opportunity.
// outcome: become an expert

4: Boredom is your friend. When the alternative to working on your skills is mind-numbing boredom, you will work on your skills. A lot.
// outcome: productive

5: Make it easy to start. Make your tasks easily accessible. If you want to learn to code, keep a tab open with code that is ready to go, where you know what the next step is. Always try to know what your next easiest, tiniest step is.
// outcome: organized

6: if you feel like shit, do these... Have a nap. Don't think you need a nap? Lie down, get comfy, and close your eyes for a while. You probably do. If that doesn't fix it, have a good warm shower. If you're in physical pain, stretch. Stretching does wonders for pain. You can get cheap items to help you stretch in the fitness section of your local equivalent to Kmart.
// outcome: may change your life, or at least your outlook on it

7: documentation is for more than just code. document everything.
// outcome: holds yourself accountable, keeps you motivated because you can see your progress

8: doing a hundred mini projects is better than one large project. when learning something or building a portfolio, always start with small projects are easily achievable. get in that mileage. many different small projects require getting good at many different skills, much more than just one project will. start with small paintings at first. this applies to everything.
// outcome: motivated, have many things to show for what you are doing

9: put it where you can see it. whatever you need to do, put it where you will see it or run into it every day, many times a day. if you constantly sort through your tabs, put a tab for coding there so you see it. if you need to remind yourself of something, put it where you will touch it, not just see it. so, if you need to take the dog for a walk, tape a sticky note to the doorhandle of the bathroom, a place where you go first thing in the morning. make the reminder of the thing unavoidable.
// outcome: actually remember to do the thing. half of success is just remembering to do the thing enough that you actually try

10: be the loser that tried. Infinitely better to be the loser that tried than the loser who said they could but didn't.
// outcome: avoid regret, self-growth

11: if it hurts, take a break (or stop). If it hurts to do something too much, emotionally or physically, and it's to the point where you're starting to hate it, stop. Growth is not forcing yourself to be in unnecessary pain. This is punishment, and punishment builds fear, not discipline. There are no trophies for ramming yourself into the dirt.
// outcome: patience and grace towards yourself; self-care

12: if you feel anxious about watching courses/tutorials (not youtube, time suck), turn the sound off and read the subtitles. Make the screen smaller, too, if possible. Seriously, for some reason my ADHD brain thinks I'm not techincally "doing" the task if it has no sound. Even moreso if the video isn't full-screen. I'm not sure why this works, but it helps a lot. I normally get a lot of anxiety around starting things.
outcome // actually start and finish things and somehow doesn't feel like "real" work, but it is

13: set a time to do the task, and start doing it way earlier than that (hours, even days if it's in your weekly schedule). It feels like cheating, plus it feels like you're way head of schedule. There's no time pressure when you're doing stuff early, even if the time was arbitrary. Also, take your time doing it so you do the task thoroughly. You're early, after all!
// outcome: chill way to complete tasks


QUITTING SOCIAL MEDIA (not this site dw)

For 2025 and onwards, starting now, I am quitting all social media except to create content.

ultimate goal: learn to have these things in moderation. do not let them overtake my productivity and things I truly value.

THIS IS TEMPORARILY ON HOLD UNTIL SAFER LIFE CIRCUMSTANCES.

This means I'm quitting watching/using (aside from content creation):

Advantages of quitting social media:

I've done this before, but this is the last time, because this time, I will stick to it. I am prepared. I've had enough. If I slip up, I'll go back to quitting and act as if it never happened. This is the best way (for me). I am not a write-off because I realized this later on in life, either.